It's Been A While

It's been a while that i abandoned this site for almost 1 year...

Been busy with my thesis and life will be getting more hectic in 2 weeks time... gosh.. i cant imagine the hell life for the final semester... what to do? last sem to strive with, perhaps after this, i will be free from all of these... hwaiting~~~

It's December~

Time, can u be a bit slower? that marks 2 more weeks for my final submission.. yet, i still stuck in my DESIGN part... gosh.. every time stuck at this part... why cant i translate my idea well into the design?? am i thinking too much? i dont know.. kinda tension now.. gonna burst d.. need to calm down to let my brain function normally... but having time constraint now.. just cant calm myself.. been tension for almost 1 week. just be silent in the house, isolated myself from the crowd... just dont felt like socialize at this moment.. am i getting weird??? argh...

Dear December, please do me a favor.. let me get my idea, work SMART and FAST. i just want to submit my assignment on time and hopefully everything goes well... a simple wish for this month...

*如果只有一点点喜欢你*

如果我只有一点点喜欢你，我就不会跟你说。

因为我知道，人生，特别当你寂寞太久的时候，有太多的冲动，把喜欢当很喜欢，把一秒当作永恒。我相信一见钟情，我也相信日久生情， 所以我要等待。

等待这份只有一点点喜欢的情愫慢慢沉淀，看过了多久，我又会注意上另外的人，患了同样的心情。

人啊， 这辈子，喜欢过太多的人，分分合合， 却始终理解不了自己的情绪。

有时候你觉得自己真的不能等了， 真的不能不说出口了，以后你会回头会发现，那是小孩子脾气。True love waits always

如果，我喜欢你的时间够长，或许半年，或许一年。

那么，我愿意和自己打个赌，看过了这么久的时间，我是喜欢你更多，还是降唯了只是欣赏，甚至发现了你的许多不契合自己内心的标准而不再喜欢你。

人人都期待爱情，不论是轰轰烈烈还是平平淡淡，都想要甜蜜，但如果光是等待，就永远不知道那是否是自己想要的。

所以，就试试吧。

如果我喜欢你更多，想和你在一起的心情一直在，且没办法把目光集中在其他人身上。

那么，我就会亲口告诉你。

但是我会给你说,我只是告诉你，因为我想让你知道。

我喜欢你，我想要跟你在一起，我想要你也喜欢上我。但是，世界上并不全是如愿的事情，相反，不如愿的事情十之八九。

所以，我没必要要你的答案，也没有要求你喜欢上我就一定要和我在一起，也不想因为这样苦恼而日渐远离我。

我说了，你知道了，那我们该做什么，就做什么去吧。

我的心里，如果喜欢是占有，那太过于自私和小气，一点也不伟大。

如果你知道了，明了了，哪一天你跟我有了同样的想法和愿望以及冲动，你就来告诉我。

如果我那时仍然喜欢你，那我们就在一起。

如果不，那就算了吧。

反正我告诉你的时候也没有承诺保证过，我会一直那样喜欢你，对吗？

反正，我们也最多只是点点喜欢彼此，那种程度还不至于不能在一起会很痛苦，不是吗？

我知道，这世界的人有太多的杂念，喜欢一个人，就把那喜欢放大成爱，把自己所做当做理所当然，想要回报，想要靠近，想要你喜欢的人也一样喜欢你，想要感情的跷跷板平衡。

不是不可以，只是还没有那么潇洒地喜欢。

爱不是跷跷板，也不是天平。双方谁爱多一点少爱一点也是正常，不恰当一点，如果爱是100分，我爱你90 分，你爱我10分，凑成满分，便也够了。

如果我们好像顺理成章在一起了，有时侯这种不平衡，会让90分的一方不满足。于是，便起争执，便起怀疑，便起疯狂，便起一句一句的“你爱我吗”，“你到底爱不爱我”。

可是，爱你自然会让你知道，爱你自然会避免争执和怀疑，爱你自然不会折磨你。

又何必那么贪心，至少他还在你看得见的地方，好好的活着。

经历过足够的人，才会知道。

如果我真的那么喜欢你，而你没有那么喜欢我

那么，

你喜欢别人，我不会痛苦；

你骗我，我总是宽容；

你需要我，我就伸出手；

你丢下我，我自己回去；

你不理我，我不会不理你；

你关心我，我淡然接受；

只要，你还在我触手可及的地方，我就没有资格再奢求什么。

直到有一天，累了，心疼自己了，

我就会走掉，

这样，你懂了吧。

interesting post.. 

Sunday

SUNDAY = FAMILY DAY

Sunday, it's a relaxing day.. keep myself away from the tonnes of assignments... woke up quite early in the morning and went for the typical Malaysian style Mamak breakfast, one of my favourite breakfast with family. 

After breakfast, it's time for some house chores and drama~ Found out that the latest HongKong drama "Line Power" is quite worth to watch... It's a drama about the lawyers and how they solve the problems using their knowledges of laws... There are few quotes in the drama which caught my attention.. It's so true to describe the human natures and behaviours.. Throughout this drama, i found out many interesting characteristics of human nature and it reminds me of something and some people in life... looking forward for the coming story..

Recently i was kept on being questioned about my current relationship status from previous secondary schoolmates, university mates and even family.. Kinda weird.. This happened since i cut my hair short, may be they are wondering it is one of the reason which i go for short hair after "something" happened to me.. lol... (this was asked and told by my friends) But seriously nothing happened to me, i just want to have some new changes in this monotonous life.. Well, another reason may be is due to my AGE ? perhaps 23 years old is the ideal age to get a bf and go for a slightly different life? i dont know and have no idea on it.. I think there's no point to rush on this matter, i believe that it will happen and come to me when it's the ideal time to be happen.. so just let it be..

2 more days to go back to the "hell" life.. haha.. gonna enjoy the remaining 2 days to the maximum... chill~

New Move in November

Felt like want to update my blog since long long time ago... but many things kept on bothering and deterring me fro doing so (always came out with some stupid excuses) lol... so make it on the day my favourite number - 3  *wink*

well, at last i able to make it and change some layout of my blog.. the "colourful" theme was being replaced by the clean and simple grey background.. perhaps just like my life transforming from a colourful to a more monotone life... may be a more matured thinking, i doubt... but i think that's a good move, at least there's some changes in my life.. going to dump the naive me in the past..

2013 seems like a happening year.. been went though many things in my life.. stepping into another stage of study life, having a new perception of study life especially towards Architecture.. although sometimes there will be still some dilemma appeared deep inside my mind but at least most of them being resolved compared to my previous aimless study life.. Met new friends in new environment... still need time to adapt.. but i am sure it's going to be a better one...

November, going to be a super hectic month fighting for final project... Hold on and keep moving forward.. Everything going to be fine

拥有就是失去的开始... Sounds quite true.. When u start to own something, u will tends feel like want to occupy it and u will start to feel like insecure scared that u will lost it someday.. Kinda hate of this kind of feeling.. Nothing happen just kind of self expression 

Random thought

When u didn't expect for something , u won't felt disappointed for it.. When u thinking too much or expect too much, the disappointment will be bigger.. Expect for nothing and live for yourself.. Work for another brand new day 😉