study.. study.. and study... this few days had been facing the notes for almost 24hrs... zzz....

but endure .. endure... thats what i keep telling myself.. few more days , i will be free !!!!! and my holiday will come along... thats the only motivation i am having now... to make me continue fight against the sleepy worms and distraction.... 

recently , always having lunch and dinner alone... cz evy1 is busy to do their revision so not dare to disturb others ask them to go for lunch or dinner... found that i dont really like to eat alone... its just make me felt like loneliness and more tension bcz after facing the books for whole day d... the only relaxing time just being accompanied by food.. aiz... pity??? nola , just want to express my feelings only... 

university life , everyone is so busy with their own stuff , so being alone is just a norm in university... undoubtly , working alone sometimes is more efficient than in group... the theory " the more the merrier" sometimes doesnt seems like appliciable in certain condition... well ,  just try to relax my mind via some writing here...

its time to continue my battle...

mY StUdY wEek

this week gonna dating with those " beloved " subjects... goodness..... for the 1st time , i start my revision for final in the 7days study week time... 

its really challenging.. somemore almost 80% are calculation parts..@.@ revised until gong gong + blur blur... but yet still cant get hows the calculation will be in that way... wish i can have a robot with genius brain teach me step by step... =P aiz.. start dreaming again.. thats why my progression is so slow... easily distract... gr...

2 more days to final... damn nervous + worried... but yet i still have to proceed with it , perhaps my brain cells can stay strong  , digest those algebraic input and analyse it.. when the moment i see the questions , it will automatically translate them and calculate them... >.<... dreaming .. dreaming ... dreaming.... again.....

m i able to finish all in this 2 days time ??? angel ah angel faster come and rescue me la....

another stage to go~

Finally the studio RUS 103 's session had come to the end... the exhibition as usual , displayed all our project works in 1A1 board... saw many nice design and decoration from my fellow friends... but 1 thg i had learned via the studio , sometimes comparison is hard to make.... everyone has a different point of view , if we keep on compete with each other , life will be tough and suffer , because what we did is just to compete with others but not ourselves... its easy to say but hard to apply it in the real life...

anyway , now its the time for me to focus 100% on my study prepare for the final exam... 1st time going to study for the very very last minuet - The last 7 days before final exam is coming~ omg!!! 

Structural - hybrid of physics and math

Quantitative - statistic

Project Management - management 

all seems so unfamiliar with me , may be they know who am i , but when the moment i look at them , its so strange... i dont know who are them la~ ~ ~ adui .... 

cant waste time already , must grab my time to get well with them in them in this short period of time... never give up!!!!! fight for final...

the moodless monday

星期一，沉重的一天。。。

总有种让人喘不过气的感觉。。尤其当新的一个assignment issued的时候，那种压力，有时真的让我喘不过气来。。但每一次埋怨过后，都会努力去找idea ， 希望可以把自己最好的一面呈现出来。。。但很可惜的是每一次都换来失望。。总是告诉自己要坚强，要勇于接受挑战，超越自己。。要一次比一次好～

但 ， 真的好累。。

曾有过放弃的念头 ， 在想要是我拿的是别的科系 ， 我会不会得心应手些？？？但绘测师是我在matriks 时感到压力时 ， 能让我有回动力的梦想。。如今却发现原来当初最简单的梦想离我那么的遥远。。。

我想今天在studio时，应该吓到周围的朋友了吧～ 不是因为老师的评语。。。而是觉得自己的无能。。为什么没有一次是让老师满意的。。觉得自己好像一无是处。。 开始怀疑自己的能力。。我真的很感谢老师的评语。。只是我好像永远都跳不出那个局限我的框框。。

或许我

应该找回那最最原始的我 ， 那个不管怎样都努力朝着同一梦想前进的我。。。

最近有点情绪化...

不晓得自己要些什么 ， 有时会觉得未来好遥远... 遥不可及的感觉... 是因为那些小小的挫折吗？每一次都告诉自己要坚强， 要努力挨过... 甚至有时会把自己埋于功课或活动里不让自己想太多... 但有时还是会觉得很累 , 好想念家... 

可能需要一些抒发管道吧～

突然好想打羽球哦～ 脑海里又冒出了在matriks时一大伙打羽球的快乐时光... 不禁让人感叹时间真的过的好快! matriks 实在留给我太多美好的回忆了... 好想念那里的朋友还有那里的一切一切... 一年的时间却足以让一班来至于不同地方的我们从陌生人变成无说不谈的好朋友... 真的好怀念～ 

Studio 让我看清很多事情... 有时候你所看到的未必是你所想象的那样... 很多事需要自己去体会,去了解才会明白的... 但是有些事却是相反的... 有时候了解了反而会发现一切根本不如自己想象中一样... 以为可以更了解 , 更明白 , 可是却把彼此的距离拉得更远 ... 事情总不如所愿 ...

明天又是星期一了～希望这个星期有 好的开始吧! 抒发了就该换个心情面对全新的一个星期吧...

another busy week~

going to summarize my days in this week....

still a busy week to cope with... with the assignments and the club's stuff...

monday having 2nd round emcee audition.. was surprised when i received the message .. but it was a tougher job to deal with... was not performed well... but still enjoy the process la...

wednesday  went for blood donation ^u^... it was my 2nd time... at 1st i was not allowed to donate because i am under-weight.. but after dealing with the people in-charge there , finally i gt my turn to donate !!! yea~ haaha... 

Rix , KL & me...

then the days after that was busy with the studio's assignment... this project is a long-run project take us about 1 month duration... some more it is all about team work... team work has its own advantages and disadvantages... it can speed up our working process or the other way round... it is about the communication and team's members commitment.... it can tighthen up our relationship or make it worse... this is what i can observed throughout the process.. communication is the most important thing...

friday i was being issued as the emcee of the club's meeting.. i was so nervous.. but yet still have t do my best.. although had some imperfection perhaps still have chance to improve myself in the future... then having gotong-royong in the club... everyone was putting their effort to clean up our club's new house.. and after working for almost half day from 2pm to 7pm.. we have a new look of the club'c house ^u^

and lastly saturday... the day i like the most ~ can relax myself.. no more homework !!!

but this saturday was excluded... we had to go back to studio for some project refinement.. after that we are free~ yes!!! time for relax... shopping!!! went to Perangin Mall... window shopping cz we dont really felt like buy anything.. after that , went for steaks.. keeke... was so full...

another busy week had gone~ life is short i have to learn to enjoy and appreciate everything....

week with all stuff 2gether...

finally it comes to Saturday... can relax d~

it was a week packed with activities and assignments... somemore having cough for almost 1 week d until stomach pain... should have visit to the clinic earlier...

many things happened in this week.. surprisingly being choosen as a secretary in a club... then busy for modeling project in the studio which is a very big model... 

tuesday having SS-9  , prom night for HBP... had a small singing performance with friends.. enjoy lots la.. most of the time was being used to take pictures la... and i m the only 1st year girl who doesnt make-up..lolx... having a pale face when take pictures... haha

  

the days after was busy with meetingssssss.....

i need SLEEP ~

and finally the big big model from the whole studio was done and submit!!! yes~ at least relieve bit...

went for MC audition... although didnt perform well la... but at least enjoy the whole process la... ^u^ it was fun... sometimes outcome is not the most important thing to care with but the process~

then went to pasar malam for 2 days.. haaha.. bought a short pant and a cute t-shirt .. ^u^ and of course ate a lots... yummy~ 

really a fully packed week... but enjoy the time with friends a lots.. fool and play together no matter when we are doing the model together or practise together... ^u^

and i finally can rest in the weekend .. love saturday so much ~