woohoo~

its another chinese new year coming.. meaning that i m going to getting older by 1 year... a step to age 20... time passing so fast.. unbelievable...

this chinese new year... i got 1 very special present... haha.. my dream present - DSLR.. ^U^

so happy ~ still a newbie to learn all those skills... perhaps i can gain a better skill and enjoy in the world of photography...

this were those pictures i captured...

 

  

 

wis to get a new image for this new year... went for a hair cut and dye my hair for the 1st time.. it was a deep copper brown... so its not obvious... it only "shine" under the sun.. 

recently  a lot of thgs happened... still need time to adapt~ through the passed away of grandma i start to realize life is so fragile.. we cant expect what will be happened in the next second... so appreciate what we have and everyone in our life if possible... i believe that she was just getting her ticket to the world of heaven , to a better world... 

may be she had transform to the meteor that i saw on sunday night at the seaside ( which the time i thk was the time she passed away)... when i rushed back to the funeral session.. i thought i was strong enough to stand with it.. but just cant control myself.. memories kept refresh in my mind... but she was rest in peace... i kept on telling myself that she was just move to another world which we cant see her anymore.. but we can kept her best momories in our mind... that was what i strongly believe...

life still goes on ~ it just a process to go through... stay strong ~

chinese new year is coming... must recharge myself.. a good start will be awaiting me after this...

was so moody today... everything seems like so dull for me... 

headache .. may be not having enough sleep yesterday night... after badminton flu comes after... gosh.. i seems like gonna fall sick soon.. >~<

just now received call from daddy.. i was like shocked by the call... grandma passed away d... it was really a sad news for me... that day still being informed that she had discharge from hospital.. i tot she was getting better.. but this news was coming in very sudden.. i dunno what 2 do... wish to go back home right now... although i cant do anything right now but wish to attend the funeral session... at least can comfort my mom... 

life was unpredictable... everything can come and left so sudden.. and we as a human has no choice to go against the natural law... may be this was what my best frn told me... this is the natural life cycle.. but i just miss my grandma so much.. memories kept spinning in my mind... i felt so sad for my grandfather.. he had to continue his life alone without my grandma accompany... 

really miss her... dear grandma perhaps you had reach the heaven... i will keep the warmest face of yours in my mind forever~ ever~

明月。。

今天窗外的月亮好圆好亮。。。好美。。

突然间好想家 ， 突然领悟到李白的诗所表达的意思。。

 好想马上回家。。

四周都洋溢着新年的气氛。。

看着一家大小的一块出来办年货，开开心心的。。

令我想起我有多久没与家人一起办年货了。。应该有6-7 年了吧。。从我中一出来念书后到现在。。好怀念那种小时候看到什么就往推车放的感觉。。然后爸爸就会去付钱。。^u^

还有在家时 ， 妈妈在做饼干， 我，弟弟和妹妹会围绕在旁边争着要帮忙。。饼干烤好后 ， 就会找回我们亲手做的那几个。。把饼干塞进嘴里时，是特别的好吃。。^u^ 这是妈妈就会说 “喝多点水啊  ， 等下生病就知道。。” 哈～  好怀念噢～

刚刚打回家， 妈妈的声音听起来有点憔悴 。。得知外婆进了医院 。。（希望外婆早日康复）

没了maid , 家里的大大小小都得由妈妈负责 ， 忙完了家里 ，过后还得到店里帮忙。。现在外婆生病了 ， 没人照顾，妈妈得往医院跑。。一定很累。。真的好想回家帮她分担一些。。

今年发生了很多事。。也许是让我学习及成长的一个路程。。但，我领悟到了家始终是最温暖的避风港。。

escape!!!

Another new task is given... a tougher and higher standard to fulfill....

but still feeling lost...

lost my idea...

lost my motivation...

lost my self-discipline...

lost the earliest motivation chasing for my dream...

i dont know what happened to me , hate this

searching ideas for so many days but yet everything seems like useless...

ideas were restricted by a lots of consideration to face the crit session for the lecturer

felt like want to escape from the reality , at least get back my motivation to move forward...

 

10.01.10

this date seems like special , right??? haha.. 10.01.10 only make up by numbers 1 and 0...

well , this weekend seems like a relax weekend for me... really enjoy.. immersed myself in the world of drama & sleep after a sleepless night on Thursday rushed for the assignment... It was y 1st time stay up for so long until 6am... totally exhausted... spending the whole night colouring the A2 poster and drawing board with colour pencil.... exhausted~~~

The outcome still can be accepted but if compared with my friends , this time my assignment seems like a bit far from the level... comparing is just not my style , but i cant let myself stop looking others' product.. nevertheless some of their assignments are really awesome... frankly to say , i felt a bit fed up for myself that moment... but i have to stand up and fight for the other 5 more projects... there are still 5 more projects awaiting me... must do my very best for the next 5 time... i m here to learn , learn from mistakes , to be a better me!!!

2010 , a new year , new resolution , new life...

2010 is a precious year for me cz i m gonna step into age of 20... wao~ time passing so fast.. i have been live on earth for 20 years... its not a short period... 20 years!!! 

from a baby > little kid > primary school student > teenagers ... life is amazing... a drastical change...

 in this year , i have to learn to be more mature , thinking in a more creative way & try to sharpen my mind (perhaps)... this is crucial in my undertaking course rite now... the Architecture.. sometimes will really felt stress & frustrated because the ideas just not by my side... nothing generate in my mind , i cant do anything.. have to learn to find my way , think out of the box and come out with a good solution to my assignment... when its done , really felt satisfied and all the depress feeling will just disappear...  it makes me depress sometimes but it did satisfied my joyfulness of life...

now... i was busying with my 1st assignment in this 2nd sem... life was going tougher n tougher.. n i was stuck in the problems again.. have to find my way out.. not much time left have to grab my time... n my dear inspiration please come back to me~